First day without "her"

The purpose i create this page is to share my feeling to all my reader ... haha ~
Date : 10/1/2010 , Sunday

Although we already breaked...but my feeling toward "her" still haunting me ... T.T... Today me still wondering that is it a right decision of letting "her" go? Haiz ... (Thing already passed d ~ dun think to much la , Tiro) this word to for comforting myself ... xD i just wants her to study well to face to the incoming SPM examination ... I dunwan her to abandoned her study just for a Jerk like me ... Not worth at all la ... Beside that ... i also feel that i cannot take care of her well... just because i gt work ... hope " her" understand my purpose of making that stupid decision ... But actually there are some reason that make me give up on "her" haha ~ ok la ~ i will share it to my reader ba ~ erm ... in fact... i still dunwan give up on "her" one ... i wan to try harder to take care of her ... but she that night sms me and say that ... " we haven start yet , how we break leh?" ... OMG?~ I being played for so long ? I duno why she say that to me ... those word very hurt my feeling ... deeply hurted me ... Nw , i hope u also reading this page ... And tell me why u say tat So dam hurt my feeling eh word...

Here is some song introduce by me ~~ xD ( Just for ppl that are sad today ~)

Two is better that one ( Boys like Girl Ft Taylor swift )
* Recently I keep listening this song ...quite meaningful for me lo~ i duno u all like it ma ~ sry ya ~haha ~ duno why ar I had a sad feeling when hearing this song ... I would rate this song as the best song i ever listen today ~haha

Yesterday( Leona lewis )
*Mostly of leona lewis song are very nice to listen one ~ but for me ... this song very suit to me ...because " Yesterday" is the day that i break with "her" ...

~FriendZz

Friend~~ ?

What is frenz ?

~~A relationship between human ?

Compare to the bond between family member , can friendship stood out ?

If you must choose one between family or friendship , what will it be ?

Maybe , in logical thinking , family are more important , but for me , friendship filled a bigger space in my heart !

Why ?

Why would i lost my appreciation toward my family ?

Why my friends are more important to me ?

Is it because i know that i won't lost my family as they always there with me ?

Or is it that friendships exist only in short period , they will go off easily if we didn't hold onto them ?

Is it real that friendship won't last long ?

What about the friend i get to know long time ago ?

Have i forgotten they existence ?

Do they still remember me ?

I choose not to answer all the questions above , if i speak out the truth , i might hurt the one who always be by my side , or even myself ........